To live for others?

[Dark Chaos Angel]

Is it so wrong and horrible to live for other people before myself? To want to make others happy not just myself?

I care more about my friends that I love then my own life. I try to do so much for them just to make them happy.

I feel like I'm being told that is wrong. I shouldn't get involved in thier problems. That I should live only for myself not others.

I CAN'T FUCKEN DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't see it as evil and wrong! Why must everybody always make me feel like it is. So many invites to live only for myself and not care for others, I refuse them all! I believe what I'm doing is RIGHT! It's what feels natural to my soul, it's what I want to do.

I feel right now that my life is a failure. Not because I did't succeed to make people happy. Happiness is thier own choice. I'll do everything I can to help but that's it, it's all I can do and the rest is up to them. It's the fact that I'm just "trying" to help people is being called wrong! I live my whole life trying to help so that is why I feel like my life is a failure. Because everything I do in life is suppoablly meaningless and I shouldn't be doing it.

WHY WHY WHY!!!

It makes no sense! Some one please explain why my life is truely worthless?

[Jakey]

(My Reply):

Kevin... you seem to have taken the words right out of my mouth...

I can undrstand you "living your life for others" - I do just that. FAR too much i'm told by people, but what do they know? I can help them as muich as I want to!
And, so should you. Dont listen to those who tell you that lvinig for others is wrong or evil. If it is what makes you happy, then why deprive yourself of that commodity? To make yourself happy by making others happy is something I know well about. If you want to, then do so, and dont listen to those who say otherwise.

Kevin, if others are telling you that something that makes YOU happy, as well as OTHERS happy, is evil- then they are sadly mistaken.
You are a good person, and let NO-ONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE.